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Engineer
02:51
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I am an engineer
Drafting versions of a better me
Floating far away from here
Farther than your eyes will see
Listen, listen
I still want to give in
But I'm holding
Fast and hard to anything
Grip your arm
You don't understand
How it makes me strong
When my nails dig in
And then rip the flesh
I always hurt the ones
That I love the best
You'll ride the train westbound
Looking out
At a world you've yet to meet
Hoping you'll recognize the sound
Of your brand new walking feet
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Round and round we go now
Unfaltering comfort like silk in your ears
It’s amazing to think that it still feels the same
After all these years
Much safer than any home I’ve ever known
We are boundless
Well if you’re looking at me for advice
Then it might not be pretty
Well if you’re looking at me
Then I’m sorry
It’s okay with me if you don’t know why you’re crying
I’ll stay by your side
I know that you are trying
If you got the hooch
Well, that’s a game-changer
May you get out quick if this house is ever in danger
May you stay out of harm’s way
Forever stay out of harm’s way
I’m building up my plastic figuring army
I guarantee that no one stands a chance
If you ever need someone, you’ll give me a call
I’ll reach out with both my little hands
Well if you’re looking at me for advice
Then it might not be pretty
Well if you’re looking at me
Then I’m sorry
May you stay out of harm’s way
Forever stay out of harm’s way
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Bad Dreams
04:13
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I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
Well if I wake up crying, then I know up dying
And if I wake up alone, then at least I’m at home
I’m going to dread this tomorrow
When it’s only today
I’m gonna take all these feelings
And throw them away
Once you’re open to change
Well, that’s subject to change
These days all the people who say that they love me
They all sound the same
Oh, I’m having flashbacks
To moments I never lived through
Hypotheticals and history
Some fictional, but many true
Moments from your timeline and mine
It’s enough to bring a tear to my eye
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
Well if I wake up crying, then I know up dying
And if I wake up alone, then at least I’m at home
Oh, I’m having flashbacks
To moments I never lived through
Hypotheticals and history
Some fictional, but many true
Moments from your timeline and mine
It’s enough to bring a tear to my eye
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
I’m still waiting to wake up
Bad dreams, forget them
Well if I wake up crying, then I know up dying
And if I wake up alone, then at least I’m at home
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Forgive Me
03:25
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And if my clumsy knees
Got scraped up on the sidewalk
Would they still carry me
On my mid-afternoon walk
To see my honeybee
To breath in all the flowers
Add honey to my tea
I’ll be there in half an hour
Could my body forgive me?
Could my body forgive me?
And if my little hands
Fumbled and dropped the ball
Would you still latch on tight
And hold them through the fall
My dearest sweetest peach
Starts to rot in my room
There’s hair lining the floor
Left behind by the broom
Could my body forgive me?
Could my body forgive me?
If I don’t own my body, then I own nothing at all
And if I don’t love my body, then I don’t love my home
And if my shaky shoulders
Could not learn to stand still
Would they still keep me strong
Or at least pretend they will
Would I look like a fool
Would you still want to love me
I ponder to myself
Staring at the sky above me
Could my body forgive me?
Could my body forgive me?
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No Conversations
03:56
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Too Far
03:02
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We could be looking in the same direction
And you’re taking this way too far
I’ve got this chip up on my shoulder
I wear it with me where I go
See I’m prideful but I’m full of shit,
And I’m gone too, so I’m a hypocrite
But I wanted you to know
No one likes to see you spin out
They just don’t know how to help
We could be looking in the same direction
And you’re taking this way too far
When you’re sitting on the floor
And you’ve taken a few tabs too many
And the music is too loud,
You’re not in the mood for a crowd
No friends help, and there are plenty
They don’t really know what this is about
They just don’t know how to help
We could be looking in the same direction
And you’re taking this way too far
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Rust and Decay
02:00
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Tucked away
Inside a box
Inside a bag
Inside a backpack stuffed
With secrets inside
A special moment
Once known
A photograph
Still framed in my mind
I’ll seek if you hide
If there’s something to find
It’s surely not mine
Anymore, in that box, in that bag,
The past packed away
To rust and decay
Former friends
Build their names
Or tear them down
Or carry on as they would
When you still called them friends
Eyes of glass
Watch over
Unblinking
Not a hint of remorse
Too late to make amends
If there’s something to find
It’s surely not mine
Anymore, in that box, in that bag,
The past packed away
To rust and decay
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A Little Strange
01:49
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He won’t come home
But that’s okay
Lying on the ground
It’s a little strange
To watch him floating down the lake
To feel the wind
Sweep him away
He won’t come home
But that’s okay
Some people say he loves me
Anyway
Don’t know how they
Know that today
But Mama’s still here
And she says she’ll stay
I love my mom and she says she’ll stay
He won’t come home
But it will be okay
He won’t come home
I know it’s strange
To see his body on the ground
To see the stones lying around
Will the flowers grow
On the stone
Where his bones lie underneath
Will the flowers grow
On the stone
Where mom’s bones lie underneath
Will the flowers grow
On the stone
Where my bones lie underneath
The flowers will grow
On the stone
Where your bones lie underneath
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Love Him
01:46
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Love him truly
Care for him always
Take his hand
On good days and bad days
And when he feels sad
Hold him closely
Speak to him gently
But listen mostly
Protect who you love
Worry if you must
Let anger float out
And away with the dust
Love him tender
Honest and faithfully
And when he wants to leave
Don’t think of him hatefully
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11. |
I Like the Dirt
03:15
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As I walk into the woods
My left red shoe gets caked in mud
Right foot gets caught up in the sidewalk
And I go down with a thud
Two men step out of a vehicle
I don’t think they see me at all
As they walk in perfect sync
Pull a man off the grass to the hospital
I pull on my sweater
It don’t make me feel much warmed
When it’s 40 degrees
I shake it like I’m I performer
Oh I feel like I’m in a movie
Nothing’s making any sense
It’s all so perfectly scripted
Crafted to entertain the audience
Keep them hanging on the fence
As I start my stumble home
A boy and girl are in a fight
She yells at him and waves her arms
This wide road starts to feel tight
I’m changing my direction
They’re raising their aggression
What could so quickly turn hateful
What was at one point perfection
Oh I feel like I’m on an escalator
Being lifted off the ground
Into another space, up and away
Far from the places I want to stay
And I’m dancing with the sound
Once you’ve been hurt too many times
One thing after another
Is there really any point
In even trying to recover?
I don’t know
I’m trying to be some good in this world
But it seems I’m not up to the task
Kindness is seen as weakness
They run away and say “be right back”
But if the story of a fall
Cannot elicit a reaction
Then I’ll have to try much harder
To ever gain any traction
Put on a shorter skirt
Take off my baggy T-shirt
Start a new life, get a new face
Or press myself into the dirt
Into the dirt, I like the dirt
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Ordinary
02:33
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The ordinary instant
Has its grip on me
The ordinary instant
Is every instant you'll ever see
Okay, but I just can't shake the weight of this one
Its tethered itself onto my legs
And it's holding me back
I cannot run
Back into the past where I think I belong
But the air smells fresher than yesterday
The air smells fresher than yesterday
And your arms hold me a little tighter
When they reach down to grab across my waist
So I guess in that sense
Everything is okay
Still with your head hung low
I hope that you know
That there's still a million normal moments
To surprise, and stun, and scare you
And it's so early for you to give up on them now
In a world so strange and sad as this one
It's sometimes okay to feel like you don't belong
What seems to be so strange and beautiful
There's lots of things you ought to know
But just can't seem to figure out
In a world so strange and sad as this one
It's sometimes okay to feel like you don't belong
What seems to be so strange and beautiful
There's lots of things you ought to know
But just can't seem to figure out
And really I think it's beautiful
To watch you learning as you go
Through each ordinary instant
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Maggie Del Re Worcester, Massachusetts
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